school today was pretty alright.
feeling kind of emo now.
thought of a lot a lot of things.
sad ones, happy ones.
but i guess the sad ones had more influence over me.
cos i'm feeling real upset now.

thinking from when we just started,
so many things happened.
there're both the touching ones, as well as the heartbreaking ones.
guess i still can't get out of the shadow of the cool down period.
i'm real upset.
after you declared the period over,
i guess my feelings were somehow forgotten.
you stopped asking me what happened when i'm sad,
all you did was to ask me not to think.
i feel like telling you how i feel.
but yet i'm afraid you'll get pissed and angry.
but now i can't take it any longer.
i can't contain my tears any longer as i'm typing this post.
maybe i'm being paranoid.
maybe i'm thinking too much.
maybe things aren't as bad as i think them to be.
but it's all these maybes that cause me to get hurt.
cos most of the time,
all those maybes aren't what the truth is.
when can we talk things out happily?
without anyone getting hurt?
most of the time when i tried telling you all my problems,
all you do is talk back and leave me speechless.
do you know how sad i am?
perhaps you think you're good when you talk back.
i don't know.
what i know is i'm very hurt.