I feel like a 3-sided face bitch nowadays.
No, i wasn't and am not a hypocrite,
but i suppressed my feelings so much,
that i don't know how to act and behave.

The feeling is like you're wishing how time
could stop and allow you to think of how to
react to situations but things just brush past
you, leaving you standing at the same old spot,
with the data you needed popping up in your mind,
but you know you no longer need them,
and you curse and swear deep down in your heart.

It's the mixture of a laggy computer, a
time-challenge test and a tourist
lost in a foreign country.

I'm starting to fear, not sure about developing
a phobia, of making new friends with strangers.
I seriously lost of skill of doing so.
Gosh, can someone tell me what's happening to me?

I'm lost, lost in myself.


And by the way,
I'm not emo;
I just have my ups and downs in life.